Looking. Searching. Longing.
I’m thirsty and hungry yet euphoric with how things drive around me. But there was an empty space on my heart that desires for more. Still, I kept on going, trying to overlook the yearning of my heart. I tried to delude myself thinking that everything’s going to be okay. But I heard a thumping whisper, trying to shame me – telling me that I’m a stranger on my accustomed dwelling, stranger of my own world. It’s difficult to buy that idea but there was a part me agreeing that there’s something wrong which I attempted to ignore.
But that whisper kept on haunting me.
Is that possible to be lost/ to be a stranger on your own track? I asked myself.
I kept on pondering. How can it be? I’m clueless. Perhaps I’m lost with no clear path to journey ahead. With all those questions, I just continued my way, paying no attention with everything.
Yet, until one day, while contemplating over things, a woman in her late teen years, tapped me. “Can you give me a minute?” she requested. I was uncertain if I would accept her request but I just said yes.
“Do you read love letters? She asked. I just nodded. “How about love letters from God?” she smiled. I gave her a quizzical look. What’s with the love letter from God? I asked myself.
Until she told me about life’s purpose. She shared a verse written on the bible. I can hardly forget about it. It was written on Romans 6:23. At first, I thought she was another saint trying to impose her beliefs, insisting that she’s good and I’m bad – that my soul will be burned and found on hell. But everything that’s been playing on my mind was all a mistaken thought.
I kept on listening on her. Little by little, pieces by pieces, I finally understand all my queries. There’s just a single solution about my petty issues, if I’ll just be bold about it – Accept Him.
I never thought that all the questions I’ve been pondering will just be answered by a firm and bold decision – Accepting Christ
I may once be a completely stranger on my accustomed dwelling, on my own world, but now I am found. I have been lost, but now I am found.
I found all I need in Him that I would never ever try to exchange any treasure of this world. Before I’m happy even I’m broke inside, but now I’m completely free. No longer stranger. No longer lost.
Inspiration: The Time has Come by Hillsong